Saturday, September 02, 2006
Dated : 02082006(Day 16)
(Day 17)
Friday was a new start of my life.
I spend some time fixing the forms for the up-coming job for saturday night and sunday's too.
The rest of the time i spent was to stare at my computer, with total blank.
Maybe i think too much, my head needs some rest.(ha)
The kids came over lunch because it's teachers's day and as usual.. There was an uproar.(ha.)
They were fun at times but, i tend to lost patience these days.
I hope i will stop that, because it will affect them somehow.
I spend the rest of the day walking around without any emotions, then settled down to clean car.
Drove to B.gombak to have dinner with DOC.
Initially, she changed her mind about coming alreday when i reached there.
Strangely, i didn't flare up and went to have my own dinner myself.
At the end, she came down and she was flaring up.(ha)
Arguments with her younger sister.
After that, i walked her back to her place.
(Truth was, this was the 1st time.)
I came by a playground and she told me that x.chris was here twice with her chatting.
I didn't say much but though x.chris didn't mentioned it to me.
It was the past after all.
Although their so-call romance was short, but i believe x.chris had tried her best?
Seriously, i don't even understand her, i realised.
Wanna know i actually feel about a friend who left me for years and now completely off my contacts?
Disappointed, yet i want to forgive her.
Forgive her for everything.
Forgive her for the things she had promised.
Forgive her for all the good things she gets and i don't.
My friend, i really don't know if i should envy you sometimes.
But, i guess i'm the one who's naive hanging on to the pact we have.
People look upon you still somehow, if you get what i'm saying.
Anyway, i guess i will never get to see you again.
Even if you would to come back, i will never be the 1st one on hand.
I hope you will be happy in whatever you have and doing. I missed you, idiot.
I think i just got myself upset again.
TODAY
I woke up with a start early in the morning and rems to wake up DOC.
(Don't worry, i have no other intentions.)
Flipped back to my bed and drop dead again.(he.)
I slept well yesterday, probably due to the stroll around with DOC.
I felt peaceful, light-hearted.
Maybe i should do that whenever i can?
Went for usual porridge with mum and sister and my mood was rather alright. :)
DOC went to meet up gf today so i left her with her stuffs.(BUSY LADY.)
I spent the whole day in office do clean-up and i shifted my table to another corner.
At last i have got a bigger space of my own and i guess i'm the only one with 2 phones.(he.)
The brats came today as usual and they had their fun and i don't.
They are actually messing up whatever we are clearing.(Pissed.)
I went to have my late 0300pm lunch before driving my brother-in-law vehicle to him at jurong port.
I had to view 4 large cranes outside. One of which is ours.
As i counted, 3 was (made in Japan), the last was made in germany, DEMAC.
That client must be fXXXing rich as per hour charges isn't cheap, morever it's for constant 2 days.
Hopefully, i will get more of these stuffs, now that we require more earnings.
By the time i got to the truck on driving back, the sky was already dark.
I was exhausted, my head was spinning the whole day and i assume it's the same thing.
I was back at about 0730pm, i presume..
Packed up with mum, sisters and nieces and drove them back to my place.
1122pm.
Waiting for my sister to finish up her movies and i will have to drive them home.
Later when i come back, i don't wanna do anything.
Don't wish to think of anything.
Tomorrow's sunday, i promised to bring the kids to marina for kite flying.
DOC just sms me that she can't go due to her unfinished work and i told her it's okay.
Don't wish to occupy her precious time too.(he.)
She asked me to take more photographs while at there.
Somehow i think i don't wish too, but i will enjoy myself there with the kids.
She was saying that she got that sentosa part-time job and i congrats her.
She also mentioned that she'll be going for the emirates's interview and if successful she might NOT be staying in spore. She might hafta give up her degree for that job.
But, all. Mum, Dad, girlfriend and everybody supported her.
I guess i will hafta give my full support.
Hey, DOC.
You are a grown-up already, not that small girl i have known.
You are that independent and i should have know that.
My advises are harmless but, you should already know what good or bad for you.
Be careful in future if things works out.
By the way, i will not be in the airport to send you off if so.
I know you will still come back if time permits.
Please do not forget ur girlfriend.
Do not abandon her if hearts still beats.
It's painful too see things in that way.
I know i will never lose you as a friend and i will not walk away anymore.
Have my blessings, my friend. :)
P.s: I have yet to mail out the toy i got for you. But soon i will. I'm a little busy. (I missed you.)
chr|s on 12:06 PM
