Thursday, August 31, 2006
Dated :03082006(Day 16)Rainy day.
THE MORNING CUMS AFTERNOON MOOD:
What a cold cold day to suit my entire mood for now.
Been putting on my big jacket just to get warm.
I have been sitting here for a half a day.
Half thinking of the next big ste of the company.
The other half is just blank.
I know what i have been thinking and i find it taking too much of my time.
Why is it so different, i asked.
Then i stopped.
Didn't want myself to figure out for a question or answers anymore.
Let all happenings or unsolved matters stop.
It's been a long time since i've sacked my last staffs.
Today i'm gong to be an assole to do that again to 2 fellow workers and there are more to go.
Seriously, i never felt good about it but i have no other choice.
I know this day will surely come and i was rather prepared for it.
I spent some time before my bedtime brooding over it.
Headache(s) is what i got the whole morning.
It's becoming the usual thing daily for me.
Best of all, i think it's killing my cells because i have doubly more white hairs nowadays.
Wish someone can pull it all or me.(He)
Everyone here looks so troubled, not to mention myself.
Everyday when i strain to open these heavy eyes, i hope it will be a different feeings.
Too bad, everyday's the same, nothing changes.
I feel my sort of situation, i find it hard to express even to myself.
I think i will take out a book to read today.
I think i will shut out the lights early tonight.
I feel better in the dark somehow.
At least there will not be noises affecting me.
chr|s on 3:32 PM
