Monday, August 28, 2006
Dated : 27082006(Day 13)
Sunday: (he..)
I woke up early as usual, washup and changed , got to my car and nearly fell asleep in the car.(he..) Headed over to choa chu kang to fetch my sister & the kids. As usual too when they see me, they screamed and jump all over the car..(GOSH..)What a greatful morning..
The morning drive was okay but i hate it when there's lot of unwanted pple parking their vehicles at our carpark and i get none in the end. I have a church beside my building and they are always, always jamming full here.
For me, although manual car do not pose any problem to me now but if you have watched the tokoyo drift, you really wish you will have a chance to feel that. I know i can't be doing over-limit so, i practice to start from gear 1 & gear 4, timing myself how long i take to finish these steps and how many km/s i can reach. Don't get me wrong, not racing, just practising on the intial steps. I like it most when the other car thought i wanna race and they zoom past me, so i look around and slow down leaving them playing with their own.(he..fun)
As this is a used and badly strained car, the suspensions is not so good. I have lotsa problems with it, but i getting quite used to it. Of course everyone would dream of a new car, with bombastic sound system, outstanding shiny rims and at least a likable horsepower you can cope with. For me, i will not request any of it, because from this 10 years experience that i see from from my dad ways, ways we struggled to pay off installments, ways we had to eat porridge and he had a great time, plus we are helpless against it.
Now that we better off don't mean we have the right to access to the capital, not like the past. If the car is getting old and they wanted to change another, let it be. If i will have no vehicle and have to take train, i will. I won't want my parents to be paying for my needs and they have to be totally responsible for it. That's what lot of kids' doing and you know what, they are complaining right now because it's totally off their imagination that everything of the car drains them out.
Regret and you wanna sell? You will at least hafta paid off 20k to 30k depending on the kinda of ride, means chopping your both hands off.(he.)i'm not trying to talk mean, but if i were you, i wouldn't even try for a 3k per month salary like that. Well, just changed my tire and it cost me at least $200 for one and my dad's takes about $400 for one. See the difference?I had a couple of rounds driving his car 3 or 4 dys after i got my licence and the horsepower? FANASTIC!
If my friends were to feel ashamed because of that, i can't help it then.(ha) People like bryan who can never understand how pathetic our life can get to, jeering at me at the corner. She even make jokes outta it infront of vivian and i don't care.
You know what? You can laugh all you want because everyone feels that the good-for-nothing ain't me. You gumble about me because i always sit higher than you even at work. You can boost about your unknown rich relatives but hey, you ain't them. Best part is i have a lousy car and you got none, at least i work for it and i get what i should.
Yes, i am not too familiar with all route as much as you but i needed to learn just like others.
Please, i'm not saying that you are smart because you know the way so don't bring it too high. I'm just small in size, i don't need a big body, small ass and brain to be smarter, so huge factor don't makes sense to me, none. I'm what i'm because i tried very hard. With what you did and always do, you have made yourself homeless, nameless and jobless with my forsake advises.
Somehow i feel that my advises and consequences towards you'd always came true, isn't it. And i'm going to stop predicting your life because it's a waste of my time and energy.
Yesterday she woke me up early in the morning and i totally ignore it because i needed time-out. After 3 missed call, she sms me: "call me back, it's urgent."
And so i dial back.
Bryan: "I have something to say but i don't know where to start."
Chris:*silent*..
Bryan: "Chantel and ah girl got problem yesterday and she is moving out. Chantel boyfriend has already rented a place but not so soon." "My god-brother promised to let her stay but he didn't leave any money for mr today so.."
Chris: "Has it got anything to do with me?"
Bryan: "No lah, just checking if you are going anywhere today and.."
Chris: "No, i'm not driving at all, I'm meeting my friends in town." " And by the way, i will not wanna see anyone of this group of friends again, one of them got a loan from me and have yet return as she promised."
"Wouldn't it be good that the loan money is with you now..?"
Bryan: "Okay la, not so shiok la."
Chris: " I'm need to go now, something's on."(Hang up..)
I was totally pissed with that call, totally fucked up with her fuckingshit.
I'm not your driver and i need to pay for my petrol. I'm not too good with your friends and why must i do that? If you can promise others that you will help, by all means borrow from loansharks and have the money to help them, i don't care.
Factors: you are even too pathetic to help yourself lest to help others, who do you think you are?
You are using me to help these pple and proclaim yourself as a hero?(ha)
Don't ask me why i still hang out with her, maybe i need somebody at some point of time.
After mel and mine r/s and i tried hanging out with her.. I can't believe the kinda life she still hanging by her throat, i can't live like that for a min.
She practically live her life without cash and expecting pple to pay everytime. NO life, NO direction.
Her friends, once when we entered RAV at boatquay. That night wasn't a freebie s they can't enter because i can only sign in vivian and herself..The rest of them went somewhere else, wherever it's free. A combination with screw and nut, good luck.
Fact about yesterday mood, i have no intention to meet anyone up. (doc, i don't mean it that way.)
I just want a walk with my naive little princess who actually know more or less about me. Tagged me in the train, hugged my legs and beg me to hug her.(haha)
Daring me to play catching everywhere, bugging me to play kids's play, i joined in. And i used every single way i learn to talk and made her learn what she needed. She followed as accordingly and that pleased me because i feel that she has the most potential. Actually, i never like baby-sit but i have share my sister's burden and morever they are fun if you know how to handle them. I maybe stern but i'm pretty patient. Vivian had her hat off me yesterday when she handed me a whole lot of badly tangled tags, ard i guess a 40pcs or so. Took me for about 30mins to quietly free them all before i realised it was already 9am.(he)
I met up jo for th 1st time after many years. The last time was with x.chris. Things happens and gone away.(I hope.) She pop up suddenly and startled princess a little and cheated her with a pack of cookies.(ha) And darn, cos she took it without asking me if i know this young lady infront of me. Anyway, it's was a short met-up because she has gotta work and we had about less than 10mins so-call conversation.
She look better than before, that's all i gotta say. She said i look shy, but i think i'm not, who's right?(*ha.)
Pests i encountered yesterday. 2 young ladies who came up at the same time with us stayed close.
I wasn't going too near anywhere but she drifted nearer and i hated it.
Looked at me and watched me typed my messages, ain't that a pest?
Luckily princess was there or expect the meaniest things from chris, ang.(he)
Very well, those are the frustrations and words from myself.
Take it or don't.(ha)
chr|s on 11:16 AM
