Monday, August 21, 2006
Dated : 21082006(Day 7)
Time now is 0903pm. I just got home not long ago.
Had dinner with my family members at Choa Chu Kang, all eating chicken rice.(ha)
I think my elder sister looks a little distracted, but i didn't really wanna ask much. My younger sister was thinking of a vacation on a cuise this month or so, asked me if i wanna go. I shook my head.
There isn't much holidays this month and i didn't wanna leave the business unattended at this point of time. Wish to get it going first before thinking of that. I was assuming that my elder sister and mum didn't wanna go too. I told my sister that a trip to other countries might be a better choice than on the sea. She said my mum wouldn't let her, so i can't say much too.
Today i was feeling lousy. I spend the whole morning complaining abt that fat ass regarding yesterday. 1st & for all, she was in car nagging about why i didn't understand spore's route and hello, i have gotta my licence for like less than 2 months. 2nd was, she was talking in her own subjects and bragging about she knows alot then got me involved and told everybody that i was slow in knowing stuffs. Ya, at least i'm working seriously and do not take my time to waste it on understanding stuffs like i don't need to know. You may ask her about where to get the best food, she can easily take you to a good place in no time. Next was she started her usual habit to say that i'm the oldest begin to describe me as an 80yr old lady. Bones aching and soon have to lay bed-ridden. I don't understand why she like it so much to throw unwanted remarks at me infront of others. I mean, you point a finger at me but, you are actually pointing the rest to yourself. She could never understand what i have been through and yet there's are only words for herself.
She didn't pay for nothing yesterday and my sister was nagging at it. I ordered curry rice, she wanted half. I order frog-porridge and she wanted it too, somemore 2 bowls. I was already not feeling gd and she continued, it was then when i flared up then she stopped her nonsense.
I was reminding my sister next time to shut her up, because i know my temper too well.
Again someone wants to PISS me off today by reporting that i didn't do my work well to remind him that he's supposed to work for today at seletar airbase. My elder sister calmed me down by telling me that she will deal with him. Because clearly to others in the office, everyone had told him that the job will continue for monday and he practically forgot. And when the customer called me in the morning i will thinking what was happening. So, i call to verify and he was in office yard container watching T.V!
I twisted tougue that i couldn't get through my guy when the air-base guy called and finally got it settled but wasted a few hours earnings.
I was again reminding my sister that his kinda acts will disrupt our system and everyone will not feel good about it. 5 years ago he was like that. He quited this company when he thought it'd going to collapse, leaving me to clear and rebuild what he thought was good enough. I spend 4 and half years to establish all and you are back to teach me what to do and not to? I'm not being arrogant or so to this dear friend of mine. But he left me years of pain and tears that i swore i will never forget. But, i will still be thankful for the painful experience he has given to me, for what i am now.
Thank you, uncle george.
This afternoon i stood by the smoking area and i missed her. Didn't carried my phone with me because i didn't wanna see those hurtful words. I got a bruise on my lip and i assume it's the increase of smoking. I have to stop all these before my next medical checkup, never want know get any cancer at this age still. I do hope that i will stop my nonsense soon, cos i didn't know it will get so bad until the bruise. Again i felt the pressure at the chest but i assume that was from the swim at sunset bay on sunday. My only wish to sleep peacefully every night.
Time : 1049pm.
Didn't understand why i spend such a long time waiting tonight entry but, i had a least took 6 to 7 sticks of cigarettes during it. Am so tired right now but, don't know if i can sleep tight afterwards.
I bought porridge for supper, am going to finish it before my bedtime. I have not been recieving any bedtime stories so i hope this supper will do me good.
Just discovered that the bookstore at the void deck near my place had closed down. "Hey, doc." They close down not that i'm lazy hor." but, i will try to get a decent book for myself when i have the time.(ha)
I'm tired, totally exhausted now.
Please pray for me like you always do.
"i missed you."
chr|s on 9:07 PM
