Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Dated : 16082006(Day Two)
I woke up at about 0915am this morning. Took my hp and click for any morning messages.
There was nope.
At 1st, i thought she might have late lectures, probably still sleeping like a baby.
I hate it when i dun remember her lectures timings.
I took out the print-list from her a month ago & checked.
Wednesday - 0830(MAS180, ECL1)..
I woke up already feeling so terrible, then i saw none msgs.
I was thinking that if she did i on purpose so, i called her on the mobile & ask her if she was free to chat.
She didn't say much as she was in the library and that she will call me back once she's home later.
Then i sms her why she didn't sms me today as usual, she replied that she didn't becos she thought i won't reply. Then, i apologised.
She came online at home at about lunchtime or so. She was still there when late afternoon, we chatted too. Like as normal, but less words.
I went to fridae.com & checked on her profile, expectally she put her status as "prefer not to say".
What can i say?
Dissed with that, i wrote a mean note questioning abt it & that she must have some1 there already.
Then i cooled dwn, apologising to her for being rash.
We talked about us again while online and she replied the same usual thing. Tired as i am, i still holds on to this slippery steps.
I know it's hard & i had too many falls.
I know i'm such a jerk this time..
I hope she will know that the anticipation waiting for her to fly back is still there.
I'm writing this entry with a weak body,(had a fever still, went to the doctor but somehow i didn't wanna touch my medicine.)i have endless things to say too.
Wanna write down every little things i remembers.
No more promises but good memories to share with..
To the girl i'm currently in love with:
I hope you touch my head, lessen my headaches.
I hope you listen to my heart-beats, it's pumping weak but it's still going-on and on.
I hope you hold my hands, cling on it cos i won't let go.
I hope you will never cry again cos i can't reach you.
(i'm sorry.) =_(
chr|s on 12:33 PM
