Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Dated : 06092006(Day 19)
Time : 0903pm
I just got home for the 2nd time.
Accompanied my mum to the evening market place, got a whole lot of oranges, some apples and pineapples.
I bet those pple are really happy when we comes, we always get alot, you see.
Although i dun understand the need for getting so much practically every month but, beliefs are afterall what pple uphold.
You lose a little, gain a little. :)
Actually, my mother had totally forgotten to get it eariler on and i already bathe and drank that BRANDS chicken..
Preparing to do my blog then go rest.. But, i can't let her go by herself.
There's a lot to take and i didn't want her to carry alone, so i went alone.
I was feeling worse today.
The dizziness, the on and off headache.
I did not see a doctor because he can't cure low blood pressure.
It's me who should be cautious about what i should really eat.
I eat more vegetables nowadays but, picking on meats stuffs.
I almost rarely eat it, i think.
And DOC told me red meat contains IRON.
I think i should be more focus on the food i pick and eat but, saying is easy, i just couldn't get myself to swallow it sometimes.
I was wailing to my mum that she haven't been cooking LOVELY home-made chicken soup that i always like.
And was telling her that she was getting lazier and threaten her that if she dun workout she will become fatter.. (ha)
So mean, right?(haha.)
Woke up late, almost 1030am this morning. (shit.)
My cuz called to rush a psa form to be faxed over to her client.
So, i rushed to office without eating breakfast and was pissed when i saw my sister already in office.
After that, took all of them to thomson for breakfast.
I always like the food there but, too many pple, too complicated and i hate it.
Went back office and i felt worse..
Can't stand up for too long becos i could also feel the blackout on and off.
Although i really wanted to clean-up my car today, i just can't tahan.
I stayed seated on my office chair and closed my eyes.
I really hate this feelings like i have heavily lost too much blood.
I then told my elder sister i hafta go back early for a rest and she agrees.
I asked DOC about the constant dizziness and she actually helped me buy those iron tablets.
Don't care, i will check the price and pay her back. ;p
And hey DOC, wait til i'm slightly better.
I will do something about that kite thingy, there must be a way.(he)
09 Sept 2006 will be my older sister's birthday.
She's asking if i wanna go clubbing today or tomorrow with my cuz(jane ang loh.)
All married cus and sister never went pub before and keep pestering me. So sicky.
Frankly, i hate these places.
Those people are never serious thinkers.
They drink, laugh and also think you are the easy fucker. You know what i mean, pple who bed around like using tissue papers.
Whatever it is, they are neither my friends or foes, i just say hi, then goodbye at the end of my party.
As usual, i do appreciate and like to see those who can really dances well, not like them but, admire their one way of associating with pple like that.
Na, i don't drink, never like it.
Unless i get really depressed.
Cos, i hate it when i drink, i get violent.
Those eyes of a human with millions of hatreds, my friend once told me.
As though i will kill anyone in my way..
So, i stopped. I won't never wanna hurt anyone in the mid of my semi-unconsciousness. And i'm really sorry to those i have hitted.
That's not me, i'm sorry.
Time : 0942pm
These days, i felt i have been saying too much and hiding some thoughts.
Perhaps i should confide to a piece of ice or an ice-cream.
Let it melts or rot away taking all my pains or whatever.(Stupid.)
I am more into songs these days.
I spend some times seeking for the songs i have always wanted in the past.
Mainly at night, i will listen to my channel(95 FM) for the songs that was long gone away from my memories.
It's like you are happy when you got the songs but, while listening you will absorb it.
Not all songs are true, i understand.
But, sometimes it's what you want to hear or feel it personally.
All i can only say is, BEAUTIFUL..
Well, ,not all my nights are sleepless.
Although i got used to not talking to anyone at nights.
Not that i do not have anyone to talk with but, the urge to talk or confide is probably not so strong i guess.
I sometimes feel speechless halfway talking to friends.
I'm lonely, i know but i really, really don't wanna open my mouth at times.(LAZY BAH?)
Yesterday night, the phone rang and stopped.
My heart stopped for a moment.
It hasn't been ringing even since she left me.
Clearly obvious it wasn't what it is, i was thinking that would she call?
I doubt so.
Since so, it's still better for us to live apart for awhile and really think over what we have been through and love our way through.
Be it a love story at all or not, this is life, neither the 1st time i have been dump..
I still have to let her go.
Whatever it will be, i will be smiling at the ending.
The rest of it, i won't comment anymore.
Tonight, i hope it rains.
I dun know why i said that but i hope it will rain.
Wonder if perth will rains tonight too?
I like to imagine that because at least it will make me feel better. :)
I'm playing a nice song but i'm not going to say what it is.(he.)
Time : 1000pm
My korean show has started already.
Going to watch it now. :)
P.s: I forgot about sending out the toy, how forgetful. Will send it out soon. Lastly, I missed you. =_(
chr|s on 9:07 PM
