Thursday, November 09, 2006
Dated: 08112006 (Day 79)
Time : 1231pm
The red headed one.
Done the coloring, i think i look weird, heh.
It's been a long long since i have updated.
Laziness is one cause.
Secondly, i find myself always looking toward to release the tons of stress i'm having..
Something i have never experience before, never before.
Something no one could do for me.
Something so simple yet i never felt before.
I find myself lying my head on tat shoulder everytime.
And someone who wants to listen and relate with.
Just that, simple.
After passing my licence for almost 4 months.
There was more stress, driving is cool but also very tiring.
End of the day, i will either park at a corner shutting my eyes for a short break or drop dead on my bed.
Sometimes i wish i haven't got it.
It's not as good as i thought. :(
Yesterday (24/10/2006) was a great day.
DOC took me to her friends's place for visting.
A block-headed butch with a very good gf staying together with their new love, a dog named zai zai.
Though their place is small and untidy, it's interesting because it's a lovable love-nest.
Something i have never seen and experience.
After that, we finalized to park my car aside and took the train.
It's been quite sometime i took it and i was a little uneasy about it.
I guess she know bah, trying to calm me a little by holding my hand.
We headed to bugis next, trying to get her stuffs and we met up with a long over-due friend, jia-ling.
I think i have met her for one year or so, she was so shock when said hello. ;p
Kelong is located in Indonesia, in Tanjong Pinang, which is about 02 Hours ferry ride away from Singapore.
We have to walk across a 800m bridge from shore to reach the Kelong.
Anyway, there are 4 boats at the kelong that can ferry you across uponrequest at no cost.
The Kelong houses 18 Fan rooms and 10 Air-con rooms, each with attached bath.
At this capacity, it can have a minimum of 56 pax based on twinsharing.
Kettle boiled hot water for bath will be provided on request.
Never thought i could have such a place to go for relaxation ever, i guess.
Although to others it's just a trip out there, to me.. it's the thoughts that counts.
I should have expect things to turn out the way it is now.
In just 2 months, i was struck hard with the reality that my wait is nothing but a make-believe fairy-tale in my own world.
While there are others who wants to try out, i have been slumbering-sleep for months.
I often laugh at myself to replace the emotional heartaches all the times.
What a sick joke.
I could and should have understood the way humanity always handles things.
Could have slapped myself thousands of times to sober up.
For many times, i always kept in an enclosed/confided area of my world becos there were things i chose not to know about.
For months, there was nobody i could confide and lean on except for DOC.
For months, that seems like years..
This has been dragging for far too long and too unhealthy.
I have been physically weak for past few months and i have to live my life with iron/royal jellies/ginsengs tablets.
3 times a days.
I have been slowly picking up on health, on feelings, on talking recently.
I'm thankful to my family, DOC and bryan.
I have recieved some mails from others in fridae.com.
All of them consoled me and i'm thankful.
(Thank you, guys.)
2 more days to my chalet.
I'm already predicting someone's gonna to surprise me. heh.
I wasn't allowed to enter before 9pm so i will slowly, slowly drag my time.
I only wish to be happier this year. :)
Although i could say..
Memories are the hardest things to forget, yet they are the sweetest things that ever make you smile.
So if there are pple out there who always think that they are actually suffering badly in work, family or love.
Look at others, there will always be a saddest case that your's.
There are pple who fall down in a process and just sit there in pain, refusing to drag themselves up. - BABIES.
There are pple who always ask for advises and refused to accept or learn to try advises out. - WASTE OF TIME.
There are pple who thinks they have everything in this world and talk abt themselves all the entire time. - TALK CORK SING SONG.
There are pple who just never like to make things clear and leave you guessing at all times. - LIARS.
There are so much you could see in your daily life.
Be it real or unreal, you will have to always figure it out yourself.
Just like when you make a new friend, it's always a gamble whether they can be a good or bad friend, ain't it?
I never like to gamble.
If i wanna win, i will try all my best. :)
To those pple who's worrying for me these while.
I'm truly grateful for the thoughts and concern.
I'm doing fine.
I'm recovering well.
I'm happily attached to a girl who allows me to heal at my time.
I'm being well-care of during these times.
I only know it's unfair towards her.
I'm sorry.
Please dun walk away from me, give me time to walk through.
Please.
chr|s on 12:00 PM
