Sunday, November 26, 2006
Dated : 25112006Time : 1225pm
She came suprisingly and said she was at my block.
Antonished, i could not but to ask her to come my place.
Knowing tat she had been under the rain with her difficult ex., i could not bring myself to hurt her at all.
She smiled and i thought it was so brave of her.
What she could not see is, the tears i been swallowing down.
Cos i felt all her despairs, difficult situation and last, the guilt she had to swallow down.
"I know, i know".. was, back of my head.
By the time she reached my place, she was totally dried up.(From the rain.)
Her clothes and her throat.
She said she was with Yellow, talking and explaining situations.
I believed.
Gave her a hug cos she really needed one.
Looked away so many times cos i didn't want to break down and make things harder.
Throughout the entire conversation in my place, we only smiled and laughed.
I know we aren't being honest about our true feelings but what could be done?
I dressed up and we had dinner together.
I was a little anxious to sent her home for shower becos i didn't wan her fallin' sick.
That was the last thing i ever wanna see.
Her exams are getting closer like next monday.
I decided to leave things until exams are over or better not to stir it at all?
Confusions.
Bad pain at the back of my head.
I'm not able to sleep at all.
Yellow had said, "where's chris in this 05 years of ur life?"
Like a slap on my cheek, i'd to admit she was darn right.
I felt i dun deserve anything, really.
Why hang me at ur neck for so long while i was changing gfs like no one's business in these 05 yrs?
Why are you so silly?
Why smile at me when you are not feeling good at all?
I sat in the car at my place, alone.
Saw her messages but didn't know what to reply.
Broke down in the car.
Couldn't find a reason nor answers to solve her problems.
No one could give me an answer too.
I'm sorry i couldn't help.
I could only, only listen.
Guide me cos i really don't know how to.
Don't apologise at all.
I should be the one.
"I'm sorry."
chr|s on 12:20 AM
