Monday, November 20, 2006
Dated : 20112006
Time : 0209pm.
Time : 0209pm.
Music Artist: Nick Lachey I Can't Hate You Anymore Lyrics
An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.
And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
...I can't hate you anymore.
Your not the person who you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
To : Melissa
Before i ended my folly of believing in fairy-tales at this point of my life.
Mel, if you are listening to tis song, feel what this man's feeling, listening to him express.
Today, I just wanna say my last part now.
I'd never hate you for making your decision.
I know what happen to you in aust.
I wished with all my best tat i will never hear anything at all during these times.
You have completely failed me, destroyed me.
Risking your love on someone else and deleted my life.
I should have spat at you and never turned back.
Well..
Alhough i never would had those eyes of yours looking at all the pain i have been living through all the entire process, i've finalized tat being loving someone shouldn't be cruel at all.
If i had loved you all along, how can i hate you?
You have already made a choice so, don't ever look back.
And the only things all i could only do now is to save our memories.
I have already done what i could to be a better gf, always trying hard to suit your life but it never, never seems to ever work out from the beginning.
I have no regrets because i have been trying, at least i stil try now and in the future.
I may have been foolish saying "I'll wait", somehow i still laugh at myself for being naive.
I thought there will be room for us in future, tat i will have all the time in the world to wait.
I thought my big-hearted thinkings and love will mend all the damages.
I thought although we have different thinkings, we could work something out at the end of this process.
Time was probably what you needed?
My eyes has blinded me for many years.
I found out tat there's another sillier person/girl existing in my life.
Someone who's always there for me yet i refused to acknowledge.
Someone who waited while i ran and ran for 05 long years.
If i'd chosen to wait for you, i'll be watching another misery.
Something you could never would have seen or feel.
This time, no matter what my future holds..
I will never want to be in regrets, i'm tired of ranning away all the time.
I need a rest, i need a shoulder to lean on badly.
This is what i found in her, simple request.
I know you aren't tat heartless, you still cared and check on me.
I thank you for tat and i will never forget.
But laugh at me if you want, riddi' me cos i can take it.
My point in this entry is not about her, it's about us.
What we went through has been an experience.
We are both upset abt how it ends.
Dun give up if you hadn't found the right one for now.
God always have a reason why things turn out to be good or bad.
Like how he made me go in circles,hurting myself for the past 05 years until i fall back to her again.
Believe it and be happy until then when you found tat somebody, you will understand.
I may too fast to conclude everything right now but you can't imagine how i felt.
Lastly, you are welcome back as a friend at all times.
Although i had said before tat i had never done tat but, i have changed my concepts.
Be happy for me because i have changed to think lighter.
I am less tense and pretty much brighter nowadays.
I have opened my eyes and ears for better views and beautiful sights.
I have learned to take my medication on time and i'm more healthier.
She has taken good care of me all these times.
Leave your worries all away if there's anymore.
No matter where you are..
Bring along my blessings altogether.
Please be happy. :)
~Chris Ang.
chr|s on 11:49 AM
