Saturday, September 30, 2006
Dated : 30092006(Day 40)
While at home yesterday, i watched T.V about pple who had struggled to change their life after a grave mistake they made in life.
It was about a man who landed in jail for a murder when he was young.
He has a wife and a son a that time.
Spending his time in jail was the last thing he could ever wanted.
For many years his wife waited for his return and the very day he was released, he was only too grateful that they put a yellow ribbon to welcome him.
It also means they have already forgiven him.
It was tough for him for his record to start anew and not to go astray.
A teacher of his reminded him of his passion of being a life-guard and gave him all the support he needed.
Despite the humiltations and different looks from everybody he met, he persisted and tried all his best.
As he explained, he was wrong before, took away a life and he was remoseful.
His only wish was to start all ovr and to save lifes as a life-guard, thats all.
And he finally got a fresh new chance after years of trying.
It's a total gift from god when others forgive of your mistakes and you will forever grasp that one and only chance, never to repeat the same thing.
It's a tragic if you gets none from others and very often it will leads to many threatening attempts to drop dead.
I won't say i have met all kinda pple durin these 26 years of life living, watching and observing them.
But if someone was to commit a grave mistake and ask for my apologies, i will not hesitate to forgive.
I cannot bear myself not to forgive them as they will have a fresh new chance to redo or start afresh.
It is seriously happier to forgive and forget and see what could be for them, life's should be that simple.
I did not say that i have not made mistakes, i do err. Some big, some small.
I have been through alot these years and learned many on the way until today.
Life hasn't been kind for me.
Career problems, family disputes and broken relationships.
In between 6 years, i have lost 03 loved ones.
1)Hep B. (59yr)
2)Heart attack.(62yrs)
3)aging, she passed away this year.(87yrs)
Wonder how it felt?
Although i have been struggling through all these for years and times, i have not sobered myself yet to understand some big factors in life.
Some say i'm a coward ranning away from many problems whenever it came to me.
Pple couldn't understand the amount of stress i faced through and i have always have no shoulders to lean on.
(Sad huh? I dun deserve any sympathy.)
It's never easy for pple to understand many things and even harder for them to suffer all with you.
If you chose to hate humanity instead becos you felt they are heartless when they dun face problems with you, think twice.
Life's not about blaming anymore.
Life's terrible you hate somebody.
Life's meaningless when you could not see true colours.
*If someone were to think that they are always coping with bad, tough life. and get angry for the rest of their life.
Try flipping pages and look others.
*If someone were to always hold on to certain regrets forever, there will never be a single night of peaceful sleep.
I know it very well myself.
Some will chose to change rapidly to help aid them get over many certain things and be different.
As far as i know, things that happened don't just go away like you wished to, it will never go away.
But that will make them happier, go ahead.
Last night, a remoseful sinner has confessed and was forgiven for a grave mistake happened years back.
It was a something that i had never thought of opening up.
Nobody knows how tiring it was to keep running at all times.
Neither could they could they understand the type of remose one could ever take.
There wasn't a need to explain anymore, the more you spade, the deeper it will get.
I often imagine how pple will hurl dirt at my face for mistakes and how i would stood there and let them vent all their anger.
You don't know how grateful it was to be forgiven. =_(
If your chance has not arrived yet, be patient.
I have waited years for this day and i felt so much better than before.
In any way, i's normal for humanity to err but there is a proper way or golden opportunity, at least a sincere "sorry" can make you feel better.
Remember, life's never easy but always hope.
chr|s on 12:43 PM
