Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Dated: 31012007Ever thought of when's th lst time you had a darn lousy day that made you so depressed?
Well, i'd it all the time back 05 years ago.
Maybe i had all the good andeasy time hanging out with friends all the time during teens.
Maybe i wasn't that least interested at that point of time to focus on any career.
I think everyone had that sort of thinking during teens once in a life-time. :/
Well, long ago before stepping into the business line, i dropped outta school entirely thinking that i'd enough.
I spent some time resting before i seek for a job for living WITH my gang of friends.
F&B for about 02 - 03 years and the last job was as a presentor at night safari for couple of months.
Working time is about 10 hours a day, stressed.
Life was tough out there without much experience and the will to sweet-talk my way to the top.
I was noted for work-harding in most job but the lack of appreciation made me upset and depressed.
Even for the job at the zoo was terrible because my senior's always pushing me to the limits.
He was seen by myself loafing away all the time and licking boots o every manager he sees and that disgusts me.
The last straw was when he demanded me to wack a rat hard on the hard ground.
Poor rat din't die initial so he took it up again and wack it so hard, poor creature's brain came out like jelly-bean curd.
I was horrfied and furious from that day onwards, i couldn't tolerate such cruelty.
Angry with the fuck-up management who hired PEAS-heads to work, I quitted before confirmation.
After this i went straight back to the family line for good.
Wthout knowing anything about this line, i step right in and day passed day until i had a serious job.
It's hell when you know shit and job began to screw up every single day.
When the day my fellow-mate demanded to quit, hell did break loose.
For weeks i have to straighten up all mess and slot them back properly.
Any mistake would cost me to lose a precious driver working under me.
I have to interact and learn to speak nicely but firmly.
By the time i arranged everything in order, it's already six mths since i started.
It's bad when you have to stay at a place without a chair for yourself.
I hafta walk all around, the only toliet for me is at least 300m away. :/
I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner all alone.
I remembered once it started to rain, i could not make it to the canteen and i'm badly soaked.
Cold and hungry, i missed my mother all the time.
Dripping wet, i called my mother up and ask if she could send me home to change.
I think she was busy, she barked at me and hung up.
Anyone would have hated her for that..
Half an hour later she drove by and picked me up.
One year plus afterwards, they place a container office for me to shelter me.
At least, better than nothing.
Work got tougher and tougher as the delivery increased.
There was many things still i could not do as i do not have a licence.
I do mainly communication, paperwork, checking and etc.
TIRED, TIRED.
Sometimes, i get home after mid-night.
Sometimes, drivers will call me to give excuses not to turn up for work.
You get all these trashs and can't sleep the whole night. Sigh~
I was relieved when my sister came to help out when she has vacation.
4 and half years later, i was summoned back to the main office by the new manager.
With new conflicts arising, stress's accumulating higher.
The new guy demanded alot and was never inside office.
All he knows was to brag all about himself, eat free food.
He was chased away at the start of 2006 and the release of all my headaches.
Things was then beginning to shape up little.
Sounds like a short rubbish novel i'm writing for myself.
It consists so much and these are all i learned to be stronger.
Yes, there was not a single good day, trust me.
I was insulted, spatted at, mocked at and many others.
I need not envy anyone out there at all, because i survive through so much pain.
As long as you are determined and strong, nothing can knock you down.
There's no need to sad about what had already happened and let it destroys you.
Cos no amount of tears and boo hoo can take back what is gone or lost.
Get up, re-organise everything and start all over.
Don't hafta blame the whole world for any misery caused, there's endless amount of it.
It's just ur luck~
Don't hafta curse and curse because it will never hurt the other party at all.
Smile back and quietly CURSE THEM HARD LOH. (so evil)~
Oh ya by the way, i don't have any good friends and don't need any because none of the them is a true one.
Sad to know that, but i have been living well with this fact.
I work hard for myself and i'm happy wih that fact.
At the end of the day, i sit back look at my fishes and play with my dog.
Simple life i have for now. :)
Dear gf, i hope you understand all i felt.
I wrote because i learned the harsh, hard way to grow up.
If there was never those time, i will never grow up.
Remember, you own yourself your achievements.
Don't be so hard on yourself cos things don't always fall nicely.
Compared to me, you had a much better life with so may friends and family.
You could be stronger and happier. :)
Naggy GF was here before lah~
chr|s on 12:13 PM
