Monday, January 15, 2007

Dated : 15012007

I'm sick again.
Been through my blog cos i have new updates from dearest gf who's now attending lectures.
I wanted to tell her that after our trip, i have never forgotten those days in Bangkok and i dun think i would ever.
The trip was amazing although the places aren't as clean and health-kinda like singapore.
I appreciate it cos she make sure i eat fruits, drink plently of (clean)water and rest well.
Pple out there, if you have a gf who always do that. ;P
Pls dun ever think they are naggy because their concern is something money can never buy.
I didn't listen and i was sick the next i was back in spore, so appreciate it. :)

Our Topic For Sweet Sunday:
There was stuffs that actually disturbed gf for abt a week.
I'd chosen to stay and try to make her share all her thoughts..

She cried and cuddled me telling me how guilty she was.
"I know, i feel it too", i said.
I felt my heart beating with the pain, no gf would want another to cry like that.
She's silly cos it wasn't anyone's fault for things to turn out that, yet she had to intake all the blames.
(Why?)
I'm feel so responsible for all her pain.
She will always asked me, " Why aren't you angry with me?"
I said," Why should i be?"
"We agreed to share all, right?"

"I gave you all my understanding and i hope you would never take that for granted."

She said," Don't build your life around me too much, i don't want you to fall apart when things happen not to work out."
I said," In life, there are risks in everything you do, make a choice and never look back".
"What happen if i was in an accident tommorrow and i dies?"
"This is my life, i hold it and be responsible for it."

Coughing started today.
The running nos's still there and i felt horrible.
I hope to get well soon.
I wanted to do my courses and going for teeth implants once i'm well.
Raining seems like it will ever stop. :(
The day before i heard gf saying,
Look up the sky today..
The clouds are really beautiful.
Can't believe it rained so heavily yesterday.
Now everything is beautiful.
There is rainbow after the rain.
I wish she had said it from her heart.
I wish she wouldn't hide all her unhappiness away so that i can't feel.

As i scanned through her own blog.
Colourful entries that only spells, yellow..
Slows me down in way..
I clicked it off, and calmed myself down.
It should be left aside and i only want the best for us now.
You gave me your assurance and that's all i needed.

Thank you for staying by me when i was sick.
For cooking wonderful dinner.
For brewing chrysanthemum tea for me.
For taking care of the kids.
For sharing so much of your problems with me.
For all that you shown and showered on me, made me know what best for me.
I appreciated it whole-heartly.

Bad day cause i'm sick and my car has been giving me problems again.
My dad's not in a good mood and i got shit from him today.
I wasn't really feeling too good but can't leave office to rest.
I am so, so drowsy and i need a nap now.

Dearest gf called me and tried to coax me to tell her what i got for her for V-day.
I won't say loh. ;p
Suprises are meant to be surprises.
She nagged at me for wasting money but i really think it's nice for her. ;p
Whatever it is, i hope you will like it.
To the love of my life, pls be always happy.
Continue smiling and shines for the both of us.

With lotsa love, RED.


chr|s on 3:57 PM