Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Dated : 16012007Blue Tuesday.
Still feeling sick as per normal cos the medication's probably not strong enough at all.
Been in a daze all morning.
Slept late yesterday.
Laid on the office table feeling sicky and irritated.
Had to drag myself to everywhere.
Alright, i'd a minor issue with gf yesterday about a somebody i knew many yrs back.
When i said, "i'd like her for a long deal of time but she's only a special friend."
Seems like i said the wrong thing.
She didn't lke the idea that i have been holding a torch for that somebody.
Didn't want me to have so many "she" in my life or our relationship.
Can't say i understand all girls now cause i understand it's my fault and i only wish to resolve it.
I tried to assure her that i had my stand and i will rid of it, she still won't eat that.
I told her in all because i feel i didn't wanna lie.
Yet, i didn't consider that it will affect my love.
How foolish.
I remembered those who had stayed in life for short period.
They said they had only eyes for me and with their own words.
Initially, I asked myself whether i should place that trust?
Finally, i feel i should and listened.
Then at the end of it, their words makes me disgusted.
They will always end up with another someone eventually and left me sitting alone at my corner.
And whenever i said my part honestly, they will create such a din that tore my ears bleeds.
So, is it correct to be honest or am i just foolish?
I dun have honey-like lips, sugary-tone or magical-batting eyes to move a relationship.
Should i change and not to be so silly?
I'm a simple chap.
Throughout these years, i have moved and been in and out of relationships.
It dun mean i'm exactly happy.
Dun mean i'm a flirtatious jerk either.
I wish for someone who stays with me and appreciate everything with me.
Stay with me.
I'll change for you.
chr|s on 1:03 PM
