Thursday, November 30, 2006
Dated : 30112006Time : 1059pm
Straining my head over and over again.
I seriously cannot understand why it's so difficult to properly plan for an overseas outing.
Orignally wanted 30/11 - 03/12.
Can't make it because my grandmother's 1 yr death anniversary is on the 2nd.
I was already disappoint because no one can't actually rems that, even my mother.
Then i was thinking to change dates to jan 2007 but my sister didn't want to cos her bf can't go.
I hate it because she was pulling long ugly faces for days and it wasn't even my fault to start with.
Mum always says, before you wanna do something, always think and look far ahead.
Now i get the note.
Anyway, we had made the amendment today and changed it to the 05/01 - 09/01.
Actually, everything will be jus fine if i hadn't ask her along.
Being twice bad-tempered and wildful, she was demanding to go even if that day falls on the anniversary.
I was seriously have no idea how could someone act like that.
Not as though grandmother have been dead for a decade, you know.
It's broke my heart hearing that.
Well, as u could see now, i have another voice inside this blog of mine.
That's my old and brand new gf for now.
We started out last month 03th and may things be better.
I have decided tat this will not be a lonely blog afterall.
If i trust and need her in my life now, she will be in my blog and entries.
She will be a little talkative but it will over-come the quieter me.(ha.)
Means this will be a brighter and happier blog.
:)I have been smiling everyday because she had never failed to bright things up.
She never failed to remind me tat she loved me.
She wrote for me in this blog and although i still felt guilty through those happy entries.
At times when i told myself again and again i dun deserved it, she had those words to settle me down.
The current her is having examinations and i hope she won't get too stressed.
We had close chats yesterday and i heard and i listen to all.
There was times i dun answer don't mean a negative answer.
This time i have to flip, look through properly and decide firmly.
I never wanna see those eyes with any tears again.
Although it's far too early to confirm anything but i just wanna feel this way for as long as we could.
Importantly, it a blessing to be like tat.
I love you, i truly do.
chr|s on 10:57 PM
