Thursday, March 19, 2009

Jay Chou, 周杰倫 - 我不配,

這街上太擁擠

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有霧氣在被隱藏起過去

妳臉上的情緒

在還原那場雨

這巷弄太過彎曲

走不回故事裡

這日子不再錄

又斑駁了幾句

剩下搬空回憶的我在大房子裡

電影院的座椅

隔遙遠的距離

感情沒有對手戲

妳跟自己下棋

還來不及仔仔細細寫下妳的關於

描述我如何愛妳

妳卻微笑的離我而去

Chorus這感覺已經不對

我努力在俛回

一些些應該體貼的感覺我沒給

妳嘟嘴許的願望很卑微在妥協

是我忽略妳不過要人陪

Oh, 這感覺已經不對

我最後才了解

一頁頁不忍翻閱的情結妳好累

妳莫背為我掉過幾次淚多憔悴

而我心碎妳受罪

妳的美, 我不配

Dated: 19032009

~Depressed~

I realised then, everyone start to shut down their journals of feelings.Whether if it's happy or unhappy ones.

I wonder if they want to forget their memories? Or it is already long forgotten?

"Reality".

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Can't Install Windows Live Messenger
Are you having problems with installing Windows Live Messenger (WLM) or MSN Messenger on your PC or Notebook?

Some tips and possible solutions to solve WLM installation:
- Download the latest WLM version availible on Get.Live.com
- Update Windows XP or Vista through Windows Update
- Go to "C:\Program Files\Windows Live" and remove "Messenger" folder (note: replace "C" with your root drive letter)
- Go to "C:ProgramData" (note: replace "C" with your root drive letter) and delete both Windows Live Installer and WLInstaller if you have any
- Restart PC

Anonymous said:
I asks a co-worker how to fix this after all the posts on this blog failed.... anyways, this worked for me and may work for you.
start the run command and type in the following without the ""
"regsvr32 wups2.dll"
There is a space between the regsvr32 and the wups2.dll.
Hit ok and then you can install MSN Live. This is related to Service Pack 3.

Yeah! Works for me!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

14 august 2008 - :( cloudy day

SINNER
A heavy heart stamped painfully this day for me.
I have forced a friend of mine to turn herself in.
With a iron, steel made heart, demanding voice so terrifying that i couldn't recognise myself.
Whether right or wrong, good or bad.
It is something that must be done in the way my head was mapping.
It was never something that i intended.
I could have blame myself because there are thousands & millions ways i can do something to prevent things from changing, but i didn't.
I truly had enough of all these unnecessary pop-ups occuring in my life everynow & then.
Cases like loan-sharks, grandma, daddy, mummy's complaining are rattling like mad sometimes.

I had enough, simply enough.
The everytime call was always troubles, problems, loans, naive baby-whining & stuffs.
A famous good-for-nothing at the age of 27 already..
Has no cash, no house, no education, not to say an ounce of sensibility.
Her family members has long forgotten her, pushing her to my responsibility once upon a time.
To think that i, chris ang have such a person for a friend for the last 15 yrs.
It hard to imagine that i will even acknowledge such a person, helping her all the time with no expectations.
I think i'm super highly-tolerant.
What a sour joke.

I have worked hard enough in my life to visualise my future ahead, manage to control myself from spending too much and still planning far.
I really deserve what i get.
The joke, is this person has never ever work hard and always had her ways to do/get what she wants.
(My OB leaturer just said yesterday : When you gossips about others, you are in a way implying that you are probably jealous of that person.)
Wait, I would like to clear this up..
I'm not jealous of her being able to always hit and ran away with things, alright?
The books may have scienific proofs that it make sense but, this was a purely, different case.
I do not lack of things she is constantly searching hard for, i work for what i want.
I do not disobey nor yell at my parents nor relatives as and when i feel like it.
I do not spend uneccesary $ just because i wanna favour somebody.
I never do hit my girlfriend/s and there is no need for violence.
I never will curse my own mother just because she was divorced and had a new guy.
(THERE ARE COUNTLESS THINGS TO WRITE IN FACT.)
Never would anyone or any friend knows better than i do about her.
I am not proud about it, sad to say that.
Good friends aren't like that.
To be frank, i had everything that i wanted in life, but only a pal that i could rely on.
But still, i am easily contented.

Basically, i shouldn't have to be the least bothered about such things, right?
Many asked, why are you still tagging her along, it isn't right.
I know and i have asked myself millions of times, WHY WHY WHY?
I really have no idea.
Every single day, i frowned.
My work, my problematic dad, clients, my modules, .. endless things.
I am an over-capacity bottle, i'm already cracking up.
Why dun pple just leave me alone?
I had a bad childhood but that dun make me a terror when i grow up.
Instead i grew up stronger each day.

I realise what i did today was a painful stab that bleds alot.
But, i never shed a single tear because i had no more sympathy for this pal anymore.
Her gf was the one who suffer.
Til the very end, she was still searching for help just to help her out.

Anyway, a lesson to be learned.
No one can ran away from their own fate.
It's a matter of time when or where you are caught up.
Am i the one who changed her life by doing all these?
I wouldn't wanna predict anymore, it's making me scared.
You get what you are supposed to get, that's reality.

Let's just pray that she will change for good.
"Forgive those who sinned, who will change eventually."
To those who are creating problems to others, we are also a victim of stress.
Your stress are entirely caused unnecessary by yourselves without you knowing.
For us, we need strong bond of any friendships or any kinships.
A shoulder we can rely on to sometimes.
It is never fair if you only take what you think you want and nothing for others, that's absurd.
There will be a day or time whereby others will start to walk away from you and your dirty business.
And you will cry helpless but no one will stretch their hands at you.
And when you realise that everyting is so so wrong, it will be too late.
Don't wait til that day comes, it's never too late to turn back.
The route may be long to walk back, it's the efforts you shown to change your life.
I have found happiness through hard efforts and i know there are people who want to change.

It's always never too late for anything.

Monday, July 28, 2008

Dated: 28072008

TODAY during morning, someone called office looking for my mum.
Out of curiosity my mum connected the call.

Anonymous : AUNTIE, your son is in our hands now.
Mum : Who is this?
Anonymous : Auntie, your son is kidnapped and you can still ask so many questions, you are so heartless?
From background someone yelled : MA, HELP ME. THEY ARE HITTING ME, SO MANY OF THEM!
(MUM thinks that voice sound more like a big gorilla than my brother.
MUM: (CALMLY) What is my son's name then?
Anonymous : WHAT?!
MUM: Tell me my son's name if you insist he's kidnapped!
Anonymous : Auntie, he will be beaten to death!
MUM: GO AND DIE LA! (HANGS UP CALL)

My mum is like so mad, but out of concern she rings up my brother just to make sure.
NO ANSWER..
Stef called. NO ANSWER too.
But she did recall that my brother was rushing for exams today and at that time he should be having exams, not outside.
I am sure nothing will go wrong as my brother nature is a kind.
He isn't those arrogant, meaty guys who really makes you uncomfortable when you even looked at them.

But i recalled back when he was about primary 6 or secondary one, he came home one evening looking pale white.
I noticed and asked him if he's okay.
It was then i realised he had bruises all over his body and i demanded what happen.
Being a weakly, skinny boy, he broke down and weep loudly.
He told me that he was robbed by 2 malay boys downstairs our voiddeck and they hitted him because he refused to give him his DAY pocket money, which is ONLY $2!!!
I swore and curse. Grab an umbrella and rush downstairs, screaming and scanning for any malays around.
They are fucking fortunately because i didn't see any.
I mean, pardon me for being vulgar, anyone would have done that for a case like that.
Come on, for a small $2 you can beat up a boy all around like that, if you grow up to be a MAN, you will STAB anyone is it?

The point is, i can't undretsand or believe that there are motherfuckers out there who can take people sons as a joke.
What if he or she can't take the blow and suffer 1-time heart attack and die?
Please for god-sake, think before you do something like heartless.

This is obviously a BLUFF and if you recall..
A few months back, Maybank has such cases before, helping a few old people before they are decieved.
It was in the news to alert people, especially old people to be careful of such phone calls.
I really hope these people will get caught one day, get caned hard for a lesson to be learn.

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