Monday, September 03, 2007
Dated : 03092007Yesterday gf was asking funny Q's at my place.
Like what will i be doing if right now i'm single.
I was puzzled and asked her why and what's wrong.
I already detected it could link to yellow.
We talked about disappointments, expectations, people, friends in life.
How life changes and why changes..
I told her in brief that some cases are rare, some not.
The more you expect from somebody fails, the harder and painful it gets.
Yes, probably you can try to make things changes but it will never stays 100%.
That's the truth.
Somehow, she finds it always so hard to accept.
I forgive and accept her thought for now because she is still learning to grow up.
Passed the teens-hoon, scaping through the tunnel of adult-hood isn't easy.
I say that all the time because i grew up in the worst environment, crying silently most of the time.
Yet, it taught me so many things that i am familiar with now that sometimes i think god's is fair.
He wants me to grow stronger by passing each round.
Well, foolish me was so tired that i slept through the night without realising that my love one is still brooding over her case.
I blamed myself this morning when she told me abt it.
And today's our 10th month.
Dun worry, i wasn't pissed over the issue that it actually landed on our DAY.
What matters now is to soothe her heart and her issue.
I'm suppose to heal her heart whenever she gets upset and she heals mine, that's the way.
Hai.
She told me, she looks out the sea today and she was calmed down.
Despites all the disappointment she felt throughout the night, she found herself at ease at PSA.
That i'm thankful because i couldn't be there for her and it's upset that i couldn't lead my shoulder now.
She said she had confronted yellow this morning and her reason is unacceptable.
i told her sometimes, when someone has moved on there are bound to be changes.
No matter how much things you or her had shared, it's all passed.
That's the fact and i have also asked myself a millions of time why it had happen.
I'm as sad as you are because i have no idea how to explain or to solve this.
All i can say is, don't expect anymore.
I don't wanna see you fall again and i can't help you.
I say this and i say these as a friend's point of view.
In a partner's view, it shouldn't be easy in the first place.
But, i could be more understanding than anyone because we have known each other for so long.
Well, we have a long way down this road.
Remember what we have drawn for our paths?
My arms are open for you anytime, anywhere.
chr|s on 2:06 PM
