Saturday, September 29, 2007

Dated : 29092007

Deep thoughts.
I just couldn't figure what going on in that old man's head.
I kept asking.
Was my foot-steps too slow or his's too fast?
I must admit there are still many things in this entire business shit that i'm supposed to learn, supposed to polish up.
There were many occasions that i have been with my more established cousins tagging their fathers to functions.
They can dress.
They can multi-talk.
They seems to understand what's going on.
They social very well.
But i, am nothing like that.

Basically, it's never easy to cope with fathers.
Then you will have to take over the position of ur own brother before he surface to this world after he grads.
It's easier to have things to be in ur own control but..
Nothing in this world belongs to you in the 1st place when you were born.
So, we had to learn and gain everything one by one.
As things changes every min of my life.
I get good things with the exchange of the bad ones.
I must admit that i know what i'm going through as well as what i'm supposed to do.

My parents's aging and i'm still at my spot.
I have to somehow move on.
Which i seriously dun know how to get to that yet.

I'm fine.
I'm just frustrated when i dun get things right on the spot.
Just like a child going through his/her teens life.
It's hard, so pressurizing.

Gf's at work now.
I just can't sleep too.
Here, writing all my frustrations.
I missed her as well.

Friday, September 28, 2007

im sorry love! i havent been updating this blog for long. u know why! cos we have been busy spending quality time and ive been busy with work too! :(

this post is gonna be full of pics! but im sure u will love it!

24/09/2007



you know i can report u to police for child abuse hor! heh. anyway celebrated the mooncake fest w the kids one day in advance as i have to work night shift on tt day. my sweet gf is playing w the kids at the pground.

23/09/2007



us at the serangooon goldfish competition. she bought alot of stuff frm there cos it was her heaven there!





the fish!

16/09/2007



gf went to my fren's wedding dinner w me!

02/09/2007



SAF yacht club overlooking the sea. sea+gf = best things in life. :)

19/08/2007



another hideout. keppel club. lovely place. gf loves there. but nt w me, only w her PSP. :(

i love gf. muack. gotta slp now for tmr course!

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Dated : 18092007

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Dated : 15092007.

Monday, September 03, 2007

Dated : 03092007

Yesterday gf was asking funny Q's at my place.
Like what will i be doing if right now i'm single.
I was puzzled and asked her why and what's wrong.
I already detected it could link to yellow.

We talked about disappointments, expectations, people, friends in life.
How life changes and why changes..
I told her in brief that some cases are rare, some not.
The more you expect from somebody fails, the harder and painful it gets.
Yes, probably you can try to make things changes but it will never stays 100%.
That's the truth.
Somehow, she finds it always so hard to accept.
I forgive and accept her thought for now because she is still learning to grow up.
Passed the teens-hoon, scaping through the tunnel of adult-hood isn't easy.
I say that all the time because i grew up in the worst environment, crying silently most of the time.
Yet, it taught me so many things that i am familiar with now that sometimes i think god's is fair.
He wants me to grow stronger by passing each round.

Well, foolish me was so tired that i slept through the night without realising that my love one is still brooding over her case.
I blamed myself this morning when she told me abt it.
And today's our 10th month.
Dun worry, i wasn't pissed over the issue that it actually landed on our DAY.
What matters now is to soothe her heart and her issue.
I'm suppose to heal her heart whenever she gets upset and she heals mine, that's the way.
Hai.

She told me, she looks out the sea today and she was calmed down.
Despites all the disappointment she felt throughout the night, she found herself at ease at PSA.
That i'm thankful because i couldn't be there for her and it's upset that i couldn't lead my shoulder now.
She said she had confronted yellow this morning and her reason is unacceptable.
i told her sometimes, when someone has moved on there are bound to be changes.
No matter how much things you or her had shared, it's all passed.
That's the fact and i have also asked myself a millions of time why it had happen.
I'm as sad as you are because i have no idea how to explain or to solve this.
All i can say is, don't expect anymore.
I don't wanna see you fall again and i can't help you.
I say this and i say these as a friend's point of view.

In a partner's view, it shouldn't be easy in the first place.
But, i could be more understanding than anyone because we have known each other for so long.
Well, we have a long way down this road.
Remember what we have drawn for our paths?

My arms are open for you anytime, anywhere.

Dated : 03092007


Alright.
Before i begin writing down today's thoughts.

- Happy 10th month -

If you are going to ask me why am i not sick of saying these words every month,
I don't know..
Straight from myself, i'm looking forward to it.
As i move closer towards having counting days, months with you.
I'm happier because i am building a future image along with you.
No matters what happens in the future, all matters is now.
I had too many things apart, don't wanna think far for now.
I appreciated, cherished your every moves to amaze me everytime.
I like the way you nagged at me every month when i never fail to present you flowers every mth.
I like the way you eventually smiled when you finished nagged and hug me.
I dun mind the nagging, i will do what i promised and i enjoyed the nag and smile.
I maybe broke now, you never did mind it at all.
I may have a broken car but never did you dislike it.
What could i asked for?
Love could have been so simple after all. :)
Once again, happy anniversary.

Love, Chris Ang.