Wednesday, March 21, 2007

S.H.E 我爱你

从你眼睛看着自己最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪
在天堂拥抱或荒野流离

我爱你
我敢去未知的任何命运
我爱你
我愿意准你来跋扈地决定世界边境

偶尔我真的不懂你又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性
怕泄漏你怕所以你生气
我爱你
让我听你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你
我想亲你倔强到极限的心

我撑起所有爱围成风雨的禁地
当狂风豪雨想让你喘口气
被划破的信心需要时间痊愈
梦想牵着怀疑未来看不清
就紧紧地拥抱去传递
能量和勇气我爱你

我爱你
我想去未知的任何命运
我爱你
让我听你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你
我想亲你倔强到极限的心

哪里都一起去一起仰望星星
一起走出森林一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己一起找到意义
让我爱你
我不要没有你我不能没有你绝不能没有你

Dated : 21032007

You must have been sad when you see me in such a state.
Must have been even more upset when you saw my diary.

For life, it's always filled with lots of surprises.
I'm contented with surprises even up til this very day.
Life's has never been happier with you along.

There's no need to apologise for everything.
There's nothing to be sorry for.

Commitments has never been easy.
While holding your hands everytime, everyday..
There's a reason to smile. =)

Dated : 21032007
Song Of The Day : Dedicated to jo.

If You're Not The One (Daniel Bedingfield)

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call.
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all.

I never know what the future brings.
But I know you are here with me now.
We’ll make it through.
And I hope you are the one I share my life with.

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand.
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away.
But I know that this much is true.
We’ll make it through.
And I hope you are the one I share my life with.
And I wish that you could be the one I die with.
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with.
I hope I love you all my life..

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand.
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am.
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away.
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today.
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right.
And though I can’t be with you tonight.
And know my heart is by your side.

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand.
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am.
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?

last night...

• my gf hugged me the moment she reached home last night.
• my gf cleaned my ear for me.
• my gf rushed home w an old desktop back home for me to use the net cos my lappy adaptor was fautly.
• my gf came home to have dinner with me.
• my gf ta-baoed polar curry puff for me.

for the past few days

• gf fetched me to jurong west to view 2nd hand bike and we lost our way for 1 hr. but she kept patient with me thru-out.
• we visited ahma and she was patient in sitting there, keeping me company.
• gf fetched me up and down like im a princess. omg, i feel pampered.
• gf slept till 3pm last sunday! lazy bummie.
• i made gf sad.
• gf wrote in her notebook abt her thots.
• gf smiles secretly whenever i tell her sth sweet. and it made me laugh all the time.
• gf cleans and dries my clothes w/o fail and i always get fresh clothes to wear all the time!
• she eats watever i feel like eating. like the raw fish at chinatown.
• we buy toiletries together. =)

i love her. :)

jo.

Background Song:
Lonestar - *Amazed*

Every time our eyes meet.
This feeling inside me.
Is almost more than I can take.
Baby when you touch me.
I can feel how much you love me.
And it just blows me away.
I've never been this close to anyone or anything.
I can hear your thoughts.
I can see your dreams.

I don't know how you do what you do.
I'm so in love with you.
It just keeps getting better.
I wanna spend the rest of my life.
With you by my side.
Forever and ever.
Every little thing that you do.
Baby, I'm amazed by you.

The smell of your skin.
The taste of your kiss.
The way you whisper in the dark.
Your hair all around me.
Baby, you surround me.
You touch every place in my heart.
Oh, it feels like the first time every time.
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes.

I don't know how you do what you do.
I'm so in love with you.
It just keeps getting better.
I wanna spend the rest of my life.
With you by my side.
Forever and ever.
Every little thing that you do.
Baby, I'm amazed by you.

Every little thing that you do.
I'm so in love with you.
It just keeps getting better.
I wanna spend the rest of my life.
With you by my side.
Forever and ever.
Every little thing that you do.
Oh, every little thing that you do.
Baby I'm amazed by you..

Monday, March 19, 2007

Dated : 19032007

We're going to watch this thursday, Miss yong's treat. heh.

Dated : 19032006(Monday)

THOUGHTS FOR TODAY :
What happens if your someone close to you had some over-left guilt bottled inside and you couldn't help?
[Shall not spell it out.]
I realised that most people will make a big fuss, ending that they hafta always hides something they couldn't say.
When they says: you should talk things out and learn to handle things like adults..
I feel that it's not so true.
Adults who never grow up can't handle anything well too.
In anyway, there'a never anyone who can tell you what's right and wrong because this is your life not their's.
I used to advise alot on my friends but none would take up any advises.
Today, when i look at them, they are as rotten as ever.
I don't mean to look in that way, neither do i look down on people.
I just couldn't and never did understand why they are in such bad shape.
I'm sorry to have say this, you are wasting your life.

Back to my issue.
I was like a withdrawn-shadow all the time until someone taught me speak up.
I think i have a problem, i cannot speak what i want.
[Learning to speak up isn't a problem, it's whether if feelings and words are true.]
I know very well that i cannot make others think what i feel.
Each time when i open my mouth and speak, those words disappeared.
I had to write it down to express.
Lots to feel cos i am having an especially unlucky month.
I had issues with almost everyone and i had to stop being so bad-tempered.
I asked myself if i'm beginning to be long-winded, i think i am.
So if you had a choice to show you care, i think you should.
Although i applied it to wrongly everytime, i know i cares silently.
People thinks i'm heartless but i know i ain't.

I'm claiming a low income and i know i'm like a seedling that would always stays small under my parents's arms.
For personal reasons that i could not defy, i hafta stay.
I needed more time.
I hope god be kinder to me, i'm too weak.
I cried, i pity myself as a child who cannot remember much of my childhood.
Pitied the way i was raised.
Pitied the way i had in life.
Pitied that i had to be always taking the initiative in eveything.
Although i grew stronger in each process, it' a lonely, cold feeling.

I look forward to a future for now.
Something that would evetually change my entire life.
Then again, i feel that i should slow down a little.
Too many things that will probably come ahead soon.
It's better to focus on career first for now.
I need to figure out my next step before i'm too bloody old.\

My gf is now napping after a trip to nus.
Tons of sweet dreams.
[Though i know you are very blessed, i wish you will be always that blessed.
Although you had indirectly brought luck into my dirt-shit life, i will rather not take it at all.
If you wish to know, this is how much i love you.]

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Dated : 17032007

Lately, i had an issue with my best friend in Aus(Sydney.)
Many things in this issues that i can't explain for some..
There are confusions, frustration, hostile, anger but also concerns, worries and misses.
Sometimes it's hard to define one another.
While she's away for long in a different space, things will definitely change.
Then again, there was same cases of others who still never change.
So, probably it just another unlucky part of my part i guess.

She'd explained that she has numerous problems, debts unsettled and has not been taking any money from her parents.
She didn't want us to worry and so, she didn't keep contact constantly.
Probably money was a problem for her?
Probably it was to much for her to handle?
Life back here in the past, years before she went for studies..
We met up whenever after school and i like it because we shared everything available on earth.
Compared with mixing with my other friends, being chris's buddy was simple and we laughed all the time.
I remembered when she broke the news that she will be going.
I felt lost.

At that point of time, i was still at busy mode.
Didn't make it to the airport for 02 times and i was very much angry with myself for a long time.
She never did came back after the first time and slowly we drifted, farther and farther.
I can't say that she claims all the faults.
After all, she shouldn't be coping well after her parents stopped remitting money over.
I couldn't help my friend, helpless..

Which one looks more alike my dum dog?

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Monday, March 12, 2007

Dated : 12032006


-I met erene at my block with a-somebody-i-disliked. (She looks fine to me.)
-Bryan finally moved out from wlds and is settled in bedok currently.(At a friend's apartment)
-X.chris called up this month. I thought that was friendly and i realised she probably need me to baby-sit serene!?
-Had a minor car-car accident the day before, was my fault. :(
-Gf moving fast towards her dream to get a bike-licence and it should be a matter of time. :)
-I'm getting fatter and i'm trying to convince myself to get some excerise!
-Just got a pretty new computer in office with a flat LCD screen. (WOAH.)

Am i getting a better life than before?
Hmmmm..
-I had a good massage before bed-time whenever i had a sore-bad back.
-Now i wakes up before 12pm on every sunday and breakfast is ready!
-I had coffee every now and then. Not too sweet, not too bitter, just nice.

Got a sudden urge to go hiking.
(I bet gf's interested.)
Then again, it's something not everyone has the right stamina to go as wild as my friends and i.
Personally, I'd two time experiences for abt 2 days and 1 night in different places.
There are limited water supply and we have to save water for drinking and cleaning up purposes.
So, basically we can't bathe.
Actually, the timing and seasons we choose are simple.
You wouldn't wanna go on rainy season, right?
But, if you have to choose a hot season, it so, so unbearable.
Every night, we have to keep at least 1 person awake, stay guard.
Cos you never know what will happen right?
My worst fear are animals around..
I once saw a darn huge komodo lizard just few hundred yards away, forunately it's across a small drainage.
Another time was the day we are heading home.
Near the pier, a dead, young crocodile floated past out our bum-boat!
Nowhere is safe but for me it's a great experience to stay over-night somewhere so peaceful and de-stress.
For the entire 3 days, i had no phone-calls, no nagging..
Just rest and laughters.
Those simple days, i like. :)

Today, gf says it's a boring day for her.
It's boring for me too.
~Yawn~
See you after your bike lesson after 10pm. ;p

Dated : 13 March 2007

A dream place dedicated to the one who wished and dreamt to share her life with me. :)

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

robin beck - the first time.

First time, first love, oh what feeling is this
Electricity flows with the very first kiss
Like a break in the clouds and the first ray of sun
I can feel it inside something new has begun
And it's taken control of my body and mind
It began when I heard I love you
For the very first time
For the very first time
This life, this love, oh this sweetness I feel
So mysterious yet so incredibly real
It's an unchartered sea, it's an unopened door
But ya got to reach out and ya gotta explore
Even though you're not sure
Till the moment arrives
There he is and you know
You're in love
For the very first time
For the very first time

And baby when I met you
Every feeling I had was new
I don't think there are words
To describe the sensations, oh no no no

It's an unchartered sea, it's an unopened door
But ya got to reach and ya gotta explore
And when something's happens
That words can't define
Only then do you know you're in love
For the very first time
For the very first time

For the very first time

love, jo.

Stevie B. - Because I Love You

I got your letter from the postman just the other day
And so I decided to write you this song
Just to let you know, exactly the way I feel
To let you know my love's so real ...
Because I love you, I'll do anything
I'll give you my heart, my everything
Because I love you, I'll be right by your side
To be a light, to be your guide
If you should feel that I don't really care
And that you're starting to lose ground
Let me reassure you that you can count on me
And that I'll always be around
Because I love you, my heart's an open door
So won't you please come on in
Because I love you, I'll be right by your side
To be a light, to be your guide

love, jo.