Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Dated: 31012007

Ever thought of when's th lst time you had a darn lousy day that made you so depressed?
Well, i'd it all the time back 05 years ago.
Maybe i had all the good andeasy time hanging out with friends all the time during teens.
Maybe i wasn't that least interested at that point of time to focus on any career.
I think everyone had that sort of thinking during teens once in a life-time. :/
Well, long ago before stepping into the business line, i dropped outta school entirely thinking that i'd enough.
I spent some time resting before i seek for a job for living WITH my gang of friends.
F&B for about 02 - 03 years and the last job was as a presentor at night safari for couple of months.
Working time is about 10 hours a day, stressed.
Life was tough out there without much experience and the will to sweet-talk my way to the top.
I was noted for work-harding in most job but the lack of appreciation made me upset and depressed.
Even for the job at the zoo was terrible because my senior's always pushing me to the limits.
He was seen by myself loafing away all the time and licking boots o every manager he sees and that disgusts me.
The last straw was when he demanded me to wack a rat hard on the hard ground.
Poor rat din't die initial so he took it up again and wack it so hard, poor creature's brain came out like jelly-bean curd.
I was horrfied and furious from that day onwards, i couldn't tolerate such cruelty.
Angry with the fuck-up management who hired PEAS-heads to work, I quitted before confirmation.

After this i went straight back to the family line for good.
Wthout knowing anything about this line, i step right in and day passed day until i had a serious job.
It's hell when you know shit and job began to screw up every single day.
When the day my fellow-mate demanded to quit, hell did break loose.
For weeks i have to straighten up all mess and slot them back properly.
Any mistake would cost me to lose a precious driver working under me.
I have to interact and learn to speak nicely but firmly.
By the time i arranged everything in order, it's already six mths since i started.
It's bad when you have to stay at a place without a chair for yourself.
I hafta walk all around, the only toliet for me is at least 300m away. :/
I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner all alone.
I remembered once it started to rain, i could not make it to the canteen and i'm badly soaked.
Cold and hungry, i missed my mother all the time.
Dripping wet, i called my mother up and ask if she could send me home to change.
I think she was busy, she barked at me and hung up.
Anyone would have hated her for that..
Half an hour later she drove by and picked me up.

One year plus afterwards, they place a container office for me to shelter me.
At least, better than nothing.
Work got tougher and tougher as the delivery increased.
There was many things still i could not do as i do not have a licence.
I do mainly communication, paperwork, checking and etc.
TIRED, TIRED.
Sometimes, i get home after mid-night.
Sometimes, drivers will call me to give excuses not to turn up for work.
You get all these trashs and can't sleep the whole night. Sigh~
I was relieved when my sister came to help out when she has vacation.
4 and half years later, i was summoned back to the main office by the new manager.
With new conflicts arising, stress's accumulating higher.
The new guy demanded alot and was never inside office.
All he knows was to brag all about himself, eat free food.
He was chased away at the start of 2006 and the release of all my headaches.
Things was then beginning to shape up little.
Sounds like a short rubbish novel i'm writing for myself.
It consists so much and these are all i learned to be stronger.
Yes, there was not a single good day, trust me.
I was insulted, spatted at, mocked at and many others.
I need not envy anyone out there at all, because i survive through so much pain.
As long as you are determined and strong, nothing can knock you down.
There's no need to sad about what had already happened and let it destroys you.
Cos no amount of tears and boo hoo can take back what is gone or lost.
Get up, re-organise everything and start all over.
Don't hafta blame the whole world for any misery caused, there's endless amount of it.
It's just ur luck~
Don't hafta curse and curse because it will never hurt the other party at all.
Smile back and quietly CURSE THEM HARD LOH. (so evil)~
Oh ya by the way, i don't have any good friends and don't need any because none of the them is a true one.
Sad to know that, but i have been living well with this fact.
I work hard for myself and i'm happy wih that fact.
At the end of the day, i sit back look at my fishes and play with my dog.
Simple life i have for now. :)

Dear gf, i hope you understand all i felt.
I wrote because i learned the harsh, hard way to grow up.
If there was never those time, i will never grow up.
Remember, you own yourself your achievements.
Don't be so hard on yourself cos things don't always fall nicely.
Compared to me, you had a much better life with so may friends and family.
You could be stronger and happier. :)

Naggy GF was here before lah~

Friday, January 26, 2007

bam! i just saw ur new entry. just finished lunch with my prof. gosh he is so darn boring. anyway i like ur post thou i was a little confused by some sentences. but it is okay, we can talk abt it at night when i go over this sat.

firstly, sorry love tt i have been so busy with work, sch and friends appointment this week. i didnt expect my dad to arrange a bday dinner on sunday. im so so sorry cos i know we have alot of things still not completed yet.

ever since sch started, feel like it is a mad rush for alot of things. been awfully upset w my bike lessons cos i cant seem to pass 2.02. it is going to be the 4th attempt for this coming monday and i really hope i can make it and proceed to stage 3.01. :(

i have a lab report not completed yet and i guess i will spend the sunday night doing it.

in another 1 more mth time, i am gg to have my mid term break which means i am half way thru the sem! gosh, so fast man! i pay like $3,100 per sem and per sem is only 4 mths. meaning to say i pay like $750 per mth. this freaking hell ex man.

secondly, i must have made a mess out of ur room and i am so sorry. i do ustand that we are different in terms of our living habits so i really hope u will ustand and i know u have been really ustanding cos i dont think any gfs will help their own gf pack their sch bag or shopping bag every night before they sleep and it was so sweet of u to help me pack a water bottle into my bag before my sch today. :)

my dear gf never fails to compliment me for looking pretty whenever i take the effort to dress up. that is one thing tt makes me feel appreciated. :) if i look good, my gf will be happy too. and the secret to keep me looking good all the time? praise me more! =)

but i think i need to go and jian fei already. sigh. i wish i wldnt have such packed schedule next mth so tt i can go and exercise. but hell no, i got lotsa projects and assignments coming up next mth and i think i am gg to be so dead. for now i am trying to relax and take things slowly and meet up w my loved ones as much as i can.

chinese new year is coming. the thing tt keeps me going for feb.

nt forgetting vday celebration and 3rd mth celebration with gf. she bought sth for me and refused to tell me. i bought sth for her too. :) i mean, i will be buying sth for her. pending pay cheque next week. i love work. (yeah right.)

good bye love. im gg to see where we can go for vday. too bad u cant take leave if nt we can try the kelong. heh. i really wan tt. perhaps next yr alright?

with love,

jo.

Dated : 260012007

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Dated : 23012007

Things has been picking up for good.
Although it has been for quite sometimes already i still feel unbelievable.
Really.

I have been recovering from my sickness gradually.
Been on like 2 weeks of medication and slept like a baby every now and then. :)
Prevented myself from oily, fried stuffs and plently of water at work and home.
I think i'm already cutting down on cigarettes but no1 believes!
Darn it.

Jan's ending, Feb's coming. :)
I feel like i've been gaining on weight nowadays and i hope i dun grow too fat!~
Been driving too much i think cos small tummy coming out.
Gosh!~

At times when i'm so bored.
I wonder how's my friends doing..
Typical for most of them.
Hmmm.
Probably very well w/o me? :)

Times passed fast.
My 1st niece is already in Primary one this year and she is so bright.
Though she will always ask funny, cheeky qns all the times.
I think she's smarter than i do.

Lately, if gf not staying over and has to rush reports or to sleep early.
I will read a book so that my head will not turn rusty, hah.
I'm still aiming on my PSP but not so soon bah.
It's not only for me to play on games, it can play music, video and surf net.
Pls dun think i'm a brat when i wanna buy that.
There are may things that many others have during childhood, there are somethings i wanna get now that i can.
Simple. :)
And the implants that i want, would actually cost me ard 6k.(Gosh.)
Wider smile, cheeky face. ;p

I think my old car is sick and really getting in it's 90s, hah.
I pampered it everyday hoping it will survive though end of this year before a new change.
Just got the tires, plugs and brakes changed.
Rainy season will be dangerous, morever the kids is always with me.
Before i change a new car, i will appreciate, remembers all the memories.:)

Messy days.
Messy table with a boring work life.
Hmm, life haven't been that exciting and rush since i drop off from transportation.
Mobile operation ain't too bad, but without class 4 and 5 and certain certs i couldn't do much.
Going to up-grade. :

Anyway, 5 mins more to 6pm.
Packing off soon.
I'm feeing a little ache at my neck and back for now.
Yawn.
I missed my good-new bed, hah. ;p

~* Chris was here lah *~

Monday, January 22, 2007

The Rather-Ex-Cake-For-The-Bday-Brat.

Pinching-Cream-Off-The-Cake!

Her-Daddy-Lighting-up-The-Candle.

Covering-Candle-From-Aircon.

hello gf. i just completed my lab report and heading to bed now. actually, i targate to complete by 5am. but it is only 4am now! since i have some free time, i shall update this blog. :)

u just left my hse for abt 4 hrs but i think i am missing u badly now. :(

sat was good. gf came over to fetch me to yishun and we had seoul garden at causeway point for dinner. it was bloody ex. cannot spend like tt anymore gf, we must save money together! :)

sunday was even better. heh.

sunday only began at 2pm. we headed to chong pang for bfast and went home to zzz again. heh. then we had last min and impromptu steamboat dinner! it is always nice to shop for grocery and food with the one u love. never mind if we didnt make it down to imm for our daiso shopping, we spent lotsa quality time together. tammy came up and sprang everyone a surprise. :)

oh gosh, i realised we are growing fat together. :( i dont wanna be called ah-bui.

okay i shall jot down some plans for this week. my very smart gf always put her notebook in the car and i dont get to see it until she fetches me here and there. hmm. make it a point to use the book dear.

monday - i am meeting u for dinner after lessons!
tuesday - i am meeting my fren, xinwen for dinner.
wed - i got work in the morning and i got my bike practical.
thursday - i shall try to jog and get rid of those fats. heh. try to complete my lab report on tt day too.
friday - sch + work.
sat - work in morning and night (kill me pls.) and seminar from 9-5
sunday - home sweet home at yishun with my beloved gf cuddling me. :)

i showed gf alot of my old photos and when i was trying to find sth else, i saw this file tt looked so familiar. then i realised it has her photos, a stack of letters tt i wrote but never had the courage to send and a 22nd bday card meant for her. im glad that i gave it to her bcos it belonged to her. it ought to be hers 6 yrs back. :)

talked abt certain someone on sat night. well, tt certain someone has a role to play in our break up 6 yrs back. i dunno whether i shld be feeling hatred for this one, but all i can say is those were the past and overall the years, i have learnt to forgive and forget. :) i think gf loves me for this point. i only know karma comes about. if someone has done me/others wrong, it goes back to the person at the end of the day.

and i wanna show my gf appreciation cos i know i can take things for granted most of the time. bad habit tt i wanna quit.

thank you-s to:

1. washing my clothes so that i get new and fresh clothes to wear whenever i stay over.
2. getting me cups and cups of plain water whenever i reach her room bcos i am such a water freak.
3. allowing me to decorate the bed according to my preferences. heh.
4. giving in to my food cravings every sunday mornings.
5. fetchin me up and down like i am a princess.
6. saying "i love you"s to me every night w/o fail.
7. accepting my ideas abt how a long term rship shld be maintained.
8. buying me chocolate milk when i finish my previous packet.
9. trusting me with her house keys and allowing me to keep a set so tt i can enter her hse as and when i like.
10. lastly, loving me! :)

okay, gf im heading to bed. got lesson at 10am tmr. will wake u up at 9am. :)

i love you.

with kisses,

jo.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Dated : 16012007

Blue Tuesday.
Still feeling sick as per normal cos the medication's probably not strong enough at all.
Been in a daze all morning.
Slept late yesterday.
Laid on the office table feeling sicky and irritated.
Had to drag myself to everywhere.

Alright, i'd a minor issue with gf yesterday about a somebody i knew many yrs back.
When i said, "i'd like her for a long deal of time but she's only a special friend."
Seems like i said the wrong thing.
She didn't lke the idea that i have been holding a torch for that somebody.
Didn't want me to have so many "she" in my life or our relationship.
Can't say i understand all girls now cause i understand it's my fault and i only wish to resolve it.
I tried to assure her that i had my stand and i will rid of it, she still won't eat that.
I told her in all because i feel i didn't wanna lie.
Yet, i didn't consider that it will affect my love.
How foolish.

I remembered those who had stayed in life for short period.
They said they had only eyes for me and with their own words.
Initially, I asked myself whether i should place that trust?
Finally, i feel i should and listened.
Then at the end of it, their words makes me disgusted.
They will always end up with another someone eventually and left me sitting alone at my corner.
And whenever i said my part honestly, they will create such a din that tore my ears bleeds.
So, is it correct to be honest or am i just foolish?
I dun have honey-like lips, sugary-tone or magical-batting eyes to move a relationship.
Should i change and not to be so silly?
I'm a simple chap.
Throughout these years, i have moved and been in and out of relationships.
It dun mean i'm exactly happy.
Dun mean i'm a flirtatious jerk either.

I wish for someone who stays with me and appreciate everything with me.
Stay with me.
I'll change for you.

Somebody Lyrics - Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me

When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She will hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see thingsIn a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things

But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

will i ever get someone to dedicate this song to me?

my heart hurts so much. last night sucks.

jo.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Dated : 15012007

I'm sick again.
Been through my blog cos i have new updates from dearest gf who's now attending lectures.
I wanted to tell her that after our trip, i have never forgotten those days in Bangkok and i dun think i would ever.
The trip was amazing although the places aren't as clean and health-kinda like singapore.
I appreciate it cos she make sure i eat fruits, drink plently of (clean)water and rest well.
Pple out there, if you have a gf who always do that. ;P
Pls dun ever think they are naggy because their concern is something money can never buy.
I didn't listen and i was sick the next i was back in spore, so appreciate it. :)

Our Topic For Sweet Sunday:
There was stuffs that actually disturbed gf for abt a week.
I'd chosen to stay and try to make her share all her thoughts..
She cried and cuddled me telling me how guilty she was.
"I know, i feel it too", i said.
I felt my heart beating with the pain, no gf would want another to cry like that.
She's silly cos it wasn't anyone's fault for things to turn out that, yet she had to intake all the blames.
(Why?)
I'm feel so responsible for all her pain.
She will always asked me, " Why aren't you angry with me?"
I said," Why should i be?"
"We agreed to share all, right?"
"I gave you all my understanding and i hope you would never take that for granted."

She said," Don't build your life around me too much, i don't want you to fall apart when things happen not to work out."
I said," In life, there are risks in everything you do, make a choice and never look back".
"What happen if i was in an accident tommorrow and i dies?"
"This is my life, i hold it and be responsible for it."

Coughing started today.
The running nos's still there and i felt horrible.
I hope to get well soon.
I wanted to do my courses and going for teeth implants once i'm well.
Raining seems like it will ever stop. :(
The day before i heard gf saying,
Look up the sky today..
The clouds are really beautiful.
Can't believe it rained so heavily yesterday.
Now everything is beautiful.
There is rainbow after the rain.
I wish she had said it from her heart.
I wish she wouldn't hide all her unhappiness away so that i can't feel.

As i scanned through her own blog.
Colourful entries that only spells, yellow..
Slows me down in way..
I clicked it off, and calmed myself down.
It should be left aside and i only want the best for us now.
You gave me your assurance and that's all i needed.

Thank you for staying by me when i was sick.
For cooking wonderful dinner.
For brewing chrysanthemum tea for me.
For taking care of the kids.
For sharing so much of your problems with me.
For all that you shown and showered on me, made me know what best for me.
I appreciated it whole-heartly.

Bad day cause i'm sick and my car has been giving me problems again.
My dad's not in a good mood and i got shit from him today.
I wasn't really feeling too good but can't leave office to rest.
I am so, so drowsy and i need a nap now.

Dearest gf called me and tried to coax me to tell her what i got for her for V-day.
I won't say loh. ;p
Suprises are meant to be surprises.
She nagged at me for wasting money but i really think it's nice for her. ;p
Whatever it is, i hope you will like it.
To the love of my life, pls be always happy.
Continue smiling and shines for the both of us.

With lotsa love, RED.

ways/things tt gf proves tt she loves me. :)

1. she covers me w blanket in the middle of the night if the blanket slips off.
2. she invites me to her family reunion dinner on the first day of chinese new year.
3. she reserves 2 drawers for me to put my clothes and accessories and another slot for me to put my skin care products.
4. she gobbles the food tt i cook for her.
5. she guai guai-ly drinks the herbal tea tt i brewed.
6. she reads our notebook every now and then.
7. she never fails to give me kisses every morning.
8. she will wanna fulfil my food craving the next day if she cant get in on the very same day.
9. she tries to find the songs tt i like so tt i get to listen to them.
10. she speeds all the way from yishun to nus just to make sure i am fine and fetches me to whevever we are heading to.
11. i get invited to family celebrations. like ah-en's 5th bday. :)
12. i get to choose the kinda bedsheet tt i wan and the colour as well!
13. gf listens to my opinion abt the clothes tt i think will look nice on her.
14. she promises to try to quit smoking for me.
15. she tries her best to compromise on my request like how i wanna travel again this coming may when i graduate.
16. she tries to pacify me whenever i am upset. :) something tt she does not do very often.
17. she tries to talk to my frens esp frens who are close to me.
18. she makes it a point to rememeber my frens' names.
19. she delivers chicken herbal soup to me whenever im sick.
20. she buys moisturiser for me cos i got rough skin for hands and feet.

and lastly, gf says tt i am part of her family and i am more than a gf to her. :)

with love,

ur-more-than-a-gf-gf. (heh.)

back from bangkok.

lovely!

well, dearest gf, this is for you in case u are so forgetful and u forget all abt wat we did in bangkok.

day 1

i went over to gf's place to pick up our luggages. we took airasia at terminal one. flight was at 2250. my gf's first flight. she was a little nervous but she mustered her courage to look down and viewed the beautiful scenery down the plane. she slept bcos she was so tired driving up and down for e entire day at work. took a cab at the bangkok international airport to our hotel! arrived ard bkk time 1am. checked in and did some admin stuff. fell aslp at 2.30am. phew.

the only sad thing was my camera was spoilt. :( cldnt tk pics for memories sake. but i know for sure, gf wont mind travelling w me again when we have the chance.

day 2

went for bfast at the back alley near our hotel. had pork+pig blood kway tiao. gf tried the coffee in bkk for the first time. omg, it was almost like espresso can. and we tried the $0.40 omelette rice as well. had some fishballs to go along. stef+bf and i had the iced milk tea. best drink in the world. :)

i, the bossy tour guide brought them to erawan shrine. the 4 faced buddha whom everyone claimed to be very effective in answering prayers! paid 100B (SGD4) for some flowers and joss sticks to pray to the buddha.

next, headed to the hot and humid weekend market, chatuchak. gf bought a pair of yellow and green slippers. and wow, we got another pair free cos the uncle was so blur. he accidentally packed another one in. and it happened to be my size! :) yay.

next, we headed to mah boon krong, the shopping mall for miss stef to buy all her lingerie. (i dont say bras hor, i say lingerie. heh.)

gf bought lotsa tibits back. (no wonder u are sick now!) i bought a lovely aqua blue tee there.

day 3

went down to pratunam wholesale clothes market and pantip shopping mall just right opposite our hotel. we bought lotsa jeans and clothes there. at night, we headed to suan lum night bazaar. things were a little expensive. :(

day 4

we headed to yaowarat aka chinatown and chionged for the accessories wholesale centre. ermerm, we had a little hiccups there. not me and gf. but well, the other couple. :(

tried the herbal tea at only 5B! it is SGD0.20 la! :) tried shark's fin for SGD12 for a 4 pax portion! then we made our way to wat prak kaew. we were pestered by some tour company, trying to make us take their boat ride for 900B, then 500B, then 450B, then 350B and finally 200B! but we said NO. see la, we itchy backside, said no and we lost our way.

yes i am a lousy tour guide, but i dont visit the temples! im so sorry, but like i always tell gf, getting lost in other countries is part of travelling and it is fun to get lost together like how we always get lost together in the car in sg. heh. we took a boat from one pier to another and got lost eventually. :( i felt bad getting lost cos we had another couple. well, the day was considered gone. and i cldnt find the dinner cruise along chao phraya river. gf consoled me by telling me there is always the next time. :) but luckily we went back for a rest and we visited the night bazaars near the pratunam centre and the ones right below our hotel. :) managed to have a sumptuous dinner and gf managed to buy a pair of black jeans.

day 5

made everyone wake up at 7am!

it was spent doing last min shopping. we ran frm places to places. firstly, we went to the pratunam wholesale centre again to buy more clothes. then we checked out. and we headed to the temple. the same temple, wat prak kaew. i stayed w stef outside the temple cos she didnt wear the appropriate bottom and gf went in w stef's bf. omg, have to pay SGD10 to go in. i remembered i didnt even have to pay a single cent to wat arun. then went back to mah boon krong for stef's bf gold peadant and then headed back to hotel and e wholesale centre. i love the dresses so much but 3 pieces were a little too much for me la. (cos it is a wholesale centre and we have to buy 3 pc up) :( so sad tt i didnt get them.

headed to the airport at ard bkk 5.15pm and communicated to the cab driver in thai to drive a lil faster to the airport cos we were running a little late. it turned out tt flight was delayed for 1 hr. that is where my thai language comes in useful! :) bargaining, asking for directions, gg to places, ordering food. as basic as it gets! better than nothing. i am determined to upgrade my thai to anotther level by taking thai classes outside since i cant get my level 3 thai in nus this sem. furthermore, this is my graduating sem. :(

everyone fell aslp in the plane. cos we were so tired.

and in 2 hrs time, we were home sweet home!

gf's bro, steve fetched us home and we saved on the cab fare. money saved is better than nothing. we tucked in at 2am sg time. home sweet home love. :)

i missed those times where u gobbled e pig blood down. missed those times where u complained abt the yucky coffee. missed those times where u looked so slpy cos i made u wake up v early each morning. missed those times where u glued ur eyes to e tv and ignored all tt i said. missed those times where u smoked like a chimney and i was making so much noise. missed those times where u grinned and grinned cos u had coke for drinks each meal. missed those times where u slurpped everything on the table cos it was so delicious. missed those times where u smiled at me when i told u to try on different tees and colours. missed those times where u looked so funny in those super tight pants! missed those times where u opened ur eyes so big bcos u saw things tt u dont see in singapore. missed those times where u smiled at me when u think i look nice in some tops. missed those times where we heard those english songs tt brought us back some memories. missed those times where u kissed me before we slpt each night. missed those times where u made so much noise cos i made u drink herbal tea and eat fruits before we sleep each night. missed those times where u cleaned and cleaned the hotel room bcos u thot it was too messy! but we have pp to do room service ma!

i missed everything about you and us. :(

may we save enuff and have another opporunity to travel again. :)

filled w lotsa memories,

jo.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Ryan Cabrera - True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cuz' i'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz' my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true..
This is true..
This is true..

I know when I go i'll be on my way to you
The way thats true..

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited..

This is true..

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Dated : 11 January 2007

Artist: RBD
Album: Tu Amor (2006)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Mi amor~
I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
Ohh...

How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here's the place to start~

Chorus:
Tu Amor~ I will always be..
Tu Amor~ means the world to me..
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You're the one in my soul
And I live for~ tu amor, tu amor

Mi amor~ love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I'll feel for all time
Ohh...

How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how
I need you so..
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that will let you know..

Chorus:
Tu Amor~ I will always be..
Tu Amor~ means the world to me..
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor ~

Bridge:
You're the one that
I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

Chorus:
Tu Amor~ I will always be..
Tu Amor~ means the world to me..
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor~ tu amor~

Tu amor ~
Tu amor ~

DEDICATED : DOCTOR YONG/GF OF CHRIS ANG.

Friday, January 05, 2007

i was trying to update sth on the blog today and the internet explorer died on me. :( but it is okay, im back here again, determined to publish my post!



the wonderful dinner on new year eve with my dearest gf who was happily soaking all her fishballs, hotdogs and BACON in butter.



the trip to ecp with the lovely kids on the second day of new year 2007. :)



my 2nd flower for our 2nd month on the third day of new year. may i receive flowers endlessly. :)

tmr is our thai trip already dear gf. heh. can barely wait. dont forget the gameboy kk. :)

-jo was here-

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

we spent the xmas eve and xmas together. we did gingerbread man and painted the house.

we spent the new year eve and new year together. we had steamboat and we visited my grandmother.

we spent the hari raya together. we cycled with the kids at ecp.

i like the simplicity of life together with you. i find joy and happiness in those simple activities.

though the bombing in bangkok has been worrying me cos i dont wan anything to happen to you guys, i kinda look forward to the trip still cos the excitement hasnt been unwrapped yet. :)

and your sentence at the bedok coffeeshop really touched me.

jo: i would rather be blasted and die right on the spot than to be handicapped.
chris: if you are handicapped, i will take care of you.

love, thank you for the thot. sometimes it is the thot tt counts. but this is too big a commitment. if such things were to happen one day, i will leave myself to be taken care by my family and let my gf find her own happiness. though it is true that we must go thru thick and thin, to be a burden to my partner is something tt i never wan esp when i am such an independent person.

from the bottom of my heart, i thank you for the thot and desire to take care of me for the rest of your life.

thank you.

dont forget, we are leaving for bkk in another 2 more days time. look forward to it bcos there is always sth to look forward to every single day.

with thots filled of you,

jo.

I Still Believe - Mariah Carey

You look in my eyes
And I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy
But you still can touch my heart
And after all this time
You'd think that I
I wouldn't feel the same
But time melts into nothing
And nothing's changed

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find

You know that I
I'm not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope
Left in my grasp
I'll hold it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no
I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again.

i love you more than you can imagine.

happy 2nd month love.

with lotsa love, jo.